Monday, November 10, 2014

a black, black day top

there are situations that i have to face that i know (or suspect) will be unpleasant. i give more thought to what i will wear when facing those situations than i give to what i will wear at any other time. why? because i feel i have to allow for the possibility that i will associate the clothes that i wear with the feeling of unpleasantness (should it manifest itself) and that i will never want to wear the clothes again for fear of triggering a memory of the situation and its unpleasantness. so the clothes have to be disposable ones. sometimes, i will choose old clothes that i no longer care for to wear to face an unpleasant (or potentially unpleasant) situation. other times, i will actually buy new clothes that are inexpensive to wear to face an unpleasant (or potentially unpleasant) situation -- h & m serves me well for this purpose. i am happy when the situation that i have to face that i suspect will be unpleasant turns out not to be so unpleasant and i come to love the clothes that i wore to face the situation (maybe there is some association going on there). i am unhappy when unpleasantness is unexpected, i don't prepare for it and i come to hate previously liked clothes.

i am wearing the alpen top, the pelican top, the ball skirt, the long tight pant and the aha jacket by kaliyana. my boots are the onion boot (closed collection) by trippen.

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